Friday, June 13, 2008

My boy

Yesterday Javi and I went to mail some packages and then we strolled on up to the Ferndale Library to check out some Baby Einstein videos. He was hungry so we sat at one of the tables by the children's section and he gulped his bottle in no time flat! Then we resumed our search for videos...We found one Baby Einstein and one Baby Genius DVD. We left the library and I was hungry and Javier was sleeping so I strolled him over to Java Hut. I planned on eating outside since the weather was fabulous, but there was a man smoking at one table and a dog chained to the other table....So, I ate inside. Javi briefly woke up so I held him and rocked him back to sleep. I read the Between the Lines while I ate my turkey sandwich.

I was thinking how lucky I was to be able to do this with my son everyday. I really do enjoy spending time with him and showing him new things and new places.....I wonder how different our lives would be with a second child. Would I be able to do the things like I did yesterday??? I really don't think I will. Unless Javier is in day care a few times a week in order for me to spend that one on one time with the new baby.

I just wonder what life would be like with two babies...I don't think we can even understand what it would be like until we are there though. I can survey and ask other mothers, but I won't know until I get there I suppose.

We want more than one child. I love Javi so much and it seems difficult to even imagine sharing my love between him and another child. But I know that parents do it all the time. Perhaps I feel this way now because Javi is still so young.

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1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Annie
I have to say that I totally understand what you mean about sharing your love. When I think about our son and the time we have spent, each little moment we have noticed and all the times I have held him for so many hours, with no interruptions, I wonder, how do 2 kids get the same love you had for just one. I don't think they do, i think that is why people always say, the first is always special. They also say, you cant love two kids the same, you love them differently. I think it is mostly because if they are close in age, it is so much of a stretch to give equal time to both. I know you will both be dedicated to however many kids you decide to have. I think the only way you can balance it is if they are far apart in age, the first one is independent and maybeins school, then you get the itty bitty baby time with the second one.