Wow, I'm sitting here watching Ellen and she just played a You Tube clip of a woman (Oklahoma Rep. Sally Kern) that went on and on about how homosexuality is the "biggest threat our nation has, even more so than terrorism, or Islam, which I think is a big threat".
We've come so far, yet have so much further to go.....How is it that people can treat others so poorly? We are all human beings...We have feelings, desires, wants and needs.....
Anyways, here is the link to watch the clip from the Ellen Show that debuted today, May 30th, 2008.
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Friday, May 30, 2008
Friday, May 23, 2008
My Son
Every day I am amazed at the cute faces my son makes...or how much he's grown since he's come home from the hospital...He is just so handsome and I cannot stop staring at him!
He didn't really take a morning nap...He slept for about maybe 30 minutes. I picked him up and we spoke to one another for about an hour....He really tries to babble something back to me..In fact, he made this cute little high pitched noise and I just melted! I put him in his boppy and gave him tummy time for the first time!! He held his head high and looked around!! It was so amazing to see! Of course I had to snap some pics of that! I am the paparazzi as most say!
He had his lunch at about 11am and then fell asleep at about 11:30am. I quickly jumped into the shower and while rinsing my hair, the dogs started barking at something!!! Which of course woke up lil Javi....He was in and out of sleep for the next half hour....He was finally ready to wake up at about 12:45pm....Fixed a bottle and he passed out in his boppy after drinking only 1 ounce!!! Oh well, guess he was tired....
He didn't really take a morning nap...He slept for about maybe 30 minutes. I picked him up and we spoke to one another for about an hour....He really tries to babble something back to me..In fact, he made this cute little high pitched noise and I just melted! I put him in his boppy and gave him tummy time for the first time!! He held his head high and looked around!! It was so amazing to see! Of course I had to snap some pics of that! I am the paparazzi as most say!
He had his lunch at about 11am and then fell asleep at about 11:30am. I quickly jumped into the shower and while rinsing my hair, the dogs started barking at something!!! Which of course woke up lil Javi....He was in and out of sleep for the next half hour....He was finally ready to wake up at about 12:45pm....Fixed a bottle and he passed out in his boppy after drinking only 1 ounce!!! Oh well, guess he was tired....
Thursday, May 15, 2008
GAY MARRIAGE IS LEGAL!!!!
In California!!! How exciting! I am hoping that this will soon spread across our nation, but if not, then here we come Cali!! How great would it be for Micki and I to be legally married and have ALL of the same rights as heterosexual couples....For Micki to be able to adopt our son (since she cannot here in the state of Michigan), for us to have medical rights and to make medical decisions for each other.....to have estate rights.....Read below....
In striking down the ban, the court said, "In contrast to earlier times, our state now recognizes that an individual's capacity to establish a loving and long-term committed relationship with another person and responsibly to care for and raise children does not depend upon the individual's sexual orientation, and, more generally, that an individual's sexual orientation — like a person's race or gender — does not constitute a legitimate basis upon which to deny or withhold legal rights."
Here is the rest of the story if you want to read it:
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080515/ap_on_re_us/gay_marriage
In striking down the ban, the court said, "In contrast to earlier times, our state now recognizes that an individual's capacity to establish a loving and long-term committed relationship with another person and responsibly to care for and raise children does not depend upon the individual's sexual orientation, and, more generally, that an individual's sexual orientation — like a person's race or gender — does not constitute a legitimate basis upon which to deny or withhold legal rights."
Here is the rest of the story if you want to read it:
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080515/ap_on_re_us/gay_marriage
Monday, May 12, 2008
Our 1st Mother's Day
Our first mother's day was a great one! We spent the entire day at our friend's Stephanie and Suzie's house. They have a son who is 1 1/2 years old. The grandparents were over as well and we had a great brunch with waffles, fruit, eggs and a variety of toppings for the waffles...It was soooo good!
Javier did such a great job yesterday. He slept for a majority of the day, but everyone was able to hold him and/or feed him! I just hope this keeps up! For the most part, I think it will since he seems to have a really laid back personality! I'd like to hope I had part in that...I tried to be really laid back and calm during my pregnancy and hopefully it paid off! :)
Thanks to our chosen family for being there for us and including us in on such a special day! I enjoyed my time!
Thursday, May 8, 2008
AAARRRRGGGHHH THAT WOMAN!!!
Yesterday my wife decided to send my so-called mother a text message. She never received a response....until today...It came in the form of an email to me! I have never come across someone on such the defense before! This woman never takes responsibility for herself! She blames everyone else BUT her for situations. She's always so caught up in the "why are they trying to hurt me" (**when we clearly are not trying to hurt her**) drama that she misses out on important events! It's always excuse after excuse....
I chose to email her back. And I feel like I really told her what I was feeling. I told her that for many years, I have felt like she is NOT a mother. Like she is some distant cousin that I see once a year. I told her many other things as well, like how hurt I was that she wasn't there for me. She wasn't there for my pregnancy, nor was she there for the birth of my son.
This woman was not this way when I was a child. I'm not sure what went wrong. Did something snap in her when she was beaten by my brother's father??? (My brother has a different father---an abusive, disgusting man). I know this goes way back, but she is completely different now.
She will not meet Javier until she has changed for the better. And I let her know that.
I chose to email her back. And I feel like I really told her what I was feeling. I told her that for many years, I have felt like she is NOT a mother. Like she is some distant cousin that I see once a year. I told her many other things as well, like how hurt I was that she wasn't there for me. She wasn't there for my pregnancy, nor was she there for the birth of my son.
This woman was not this way when I was a child. I'm not sure what went wrong. Did something snap in her when she was beaten by my brother's father??? (My brother has a different father---an abusive, disgusting man). I know this goes way back, but she is completely different now.
She will not meet Javier until she has changed for the better. And I let her know that.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Aaahhh blogging....
Blogging really does help. I have received such beautiful comments about my recent situation with my mother. I really do enjoy reading your inspiring messages. Although it doesn't take the hurt away, it does make me feel loved and supported by so many. So thank you.
On another note....my son had a rough second half of the night....For some reason, he does NOT like his co-sleeper....I'm not sure if it is too big, too uncomfortable, too cold, or what the problem may be. He did sleep from about 9:30pm until 2:3oam, so that was nice...But he fussed in his bed from 3am until 5am (after his bottle), so Micki had to pick him up and he slept on her chest until 8am. I know he is only 3 weeks old and they say you can't spoil a child that young, but I'm afraid he'll get too used to sleeping on us and we'll have one hell of a problem to deal with down the line...But he's just so damn cute!
This afternoon, Javi slept in his co-sleeper for his morning nap!!! He slept for 3 hours!!! I was waiting and waiting and waiting for him to wake up! And when he finally did, I missed him so much! I couldn't wait to see those beautiful eyes! He's such a good boy! And I love him so much!
On another note....my son had a rough second half of the night....For some reason, he does NOT like his co-sleeper....I'm not sure if it is too big, too uncomfortable, too cold, or what the problem may be. He did sleep from about 9:30pm until 2:3oam, so that was nice...But he fussed in his bed from 3am until 5am (after his bottle), so Micki had to pick him up and he slept on her chest until 8am. I know he is only 3 weeks old and they say you can't spoil a child that young, but I'm afraid he'll get too used to sleeping on us and we'll have one hell of a problem to deal with down the line...But he's just so damn cute!
This afternoon, Javi slept in his co-sleeper for his morning nap!!! He slept for 3 hours!!! I was waiting and waiting and waiting for him to wake up! And when he finally did, I missed him so much! I couldn't wait to see those beautiful eyes! He's such a good boy! And I love him so much!
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
An Emotional Day....
Today (Saturday, May 3rd) was a difficult day. We didn't get much sleep last night. Javi was up every 2 hours to eat and didn't want to sleep in his co-sleeper which is next to the bed. We woke up about 8am and got everything ready to go to work with Mommy Micki since we were going to go to our niece's 1st birthday party afterwards.
Let's backtrack a bit....my mother hasn't been around in quite some time. I saw her only a handful of times during my pregnancy. She never called to see how I was doing, never got to share pregnancy stories, never there to bounce the feelings I was having off of her, never there to laugh about peeing my pants when I laughed or feeling Javi kick inside of me....And then the delivery happened and she never called....She never even picked up the telephone to say "congrats" to us! And 17 days later, still hasn't acknowledged her eldest daughter giving birth to her first born!!!!
Fast forward to this week....I told my sister that if my mother showed up at my niece's birthday party, that Micki and I would not stay. That woman does not deserve to meet our son! I thought it was VERY rude of my own mother not to call when Javier was born, let alone stop BY and see us! Anyways, as we pulled up to the party, lol and behold, there was her car. We pulled up into the driveway and Micki said she would just take the birthday gifts inside and we would leave. All of a sudden almost every person at the party came out to the car to see our son! It was amazing that everyone wanted to see our son! I thought I was doing a good job by just sitting there and keeping it together. Until I saw my sister.....I felt sad that I was going to miss her daughter's 1st birthday party. I was ashamed of myself for not setting my personal beliefs aside to attend my niece's party. But then again, I felt upset, angry, pissed off, and most of all very hurt that my own mother was there she hadn't acknowledged me, my son or Micki. I lost it when I saw my sister...I cried. She hugged me and told me not to let that woman get to me. But she does get to me. She does...My grandmother then came around and gave me a big hug and told me that I am very loved. I know that I am. I am loved by my wife, my son, my dad, my sister, my chosen family and my friends. But a love from a mother....that is different...
For a very long time, I have felt that my mother hasn't felt like a mother to me. She has felt like a distant relative...one that I don't associate much with...One that is like some distant cousin that I see once in a while and don't really speak much about anything. So why would I breakdown like I did??? Because she is still my mother. And it hurts.
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