Yesterday my wife decided to send my so-called mother a text message. She never received a response....until today...It came in the form of an email to me! I have never come across someone on such the defense before! This woman never takes responsibility for herself! She blames everyone else BUT her for situations. She's always so caught up in the "why are they trying to hurt me" (**when we clearly are not trying to hurt her**) drama that she misses out on important events! It's always excuse after excuse....
I chose to email her back. And I feel like I really told her what I was feeling. I told her that for many years, I have felt like she is NOT a mother. Like she is some distant cousin that I see once a year. I told her many other things as well, like how hurt I was that she wasn't there for me. She wasn't there for my pregnancy, nor was she there for the birth of my son.
This woman was not this way when I was a child. I'm not sure what went wrong. Did something snap in her when she was beaten by my brother's father??? (My brother has a different father---an abusive, disgusting man). I know this goes way back, but she is completely different now.
She will not meet Javier until she has changed for the better. And I let her know that.
3 comments:
I am so proud of you for telling her how you feel.
I love you!
I am so proud of you for telling her how you feel!
You know, Annie
In this lifetime there are many reasons to let other people keep our focus. You have done an excellent of keeping your energy focusing on the things that are important to you and ignoring the silly monkeys jumping in front of you to try to get your attention. Your mom has no way of taking responsibility for what she is doing, she is not mature enough to own it, because of she owns that, she has to own everything. And that, my dear, would probably make her nuts. Keep yourself focused on what is important now, javier and micki and you. And let the rest of it go. If she were to come back into your life as a mother, then maybe she would be worthy of being involved in Javiers life, but honey thats a long way off. I applaud you for having your voice, for being true to your spirit and for protecting your child. Love and peace. Suzie
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